KEYS TO MY HEART

Jagadish mentioned the need for a patient partner in his last blog. One of the easiest things to lose in an LDR (at least from what I’ve experienced) is patience. When it comes to something as close to my heart as Jagadish is, it’s hard to be patient. It’s truly difficult to see that pot of gold at the end of the rainbow. A oft-heard quote is one by Daisaku Ikeda and goes, “With love and patience, nothing is impossible.” Of course he certainly didnt mean it in this context–he was a Japanese peace activist, I believe, but it’s certainly applicable to us. For me, especially. It’s hard to pen down in words how much you yearn to be with your special someone. Often, I spot happy couples walking down on the street, and it creates an unbelievable longing for better times. You can only mollify yourself so much.

What, then, keeps us going? That is a question I’m still attempting to answer. It’s probably not any single thing. I’m lucky in that Jagadish is a mine of patience. Of course, when he does lose his temper, he is an erupting volcano, but that is an aside that I will blog about at leisure someday Most times, he is what keeps me going. He helps me see the big picture-what is important and what is not, and when I calm down, I realize how worth it it will all be when we are indeed together one day. To be entirely frank, the thought of breaking up has crossed my mind several times, and Jagadish knows this, but not once has it crossed his mind. He has been a rock solid pillar of support. We could not have come so far without him.

Another thing that keeps us going is simply our love for each other. We both know it would be impossible to imagine being with another. That is a thought that has long passed us. For both of us, the relationship is far more than that of a girlfriend & boyfriend. We had committed ourselves to each other without actually having to think about “the next step”. There is no confusion about where we want our relationship to go at all and we both know it isnt going to come easily and we will have to work toward it. I think it is very important for any two people in a relationship of this sort to be on the same page. To have similar expectations and similar goals. Rifts will naturally occur when there are disparate thoughts and mindsets.

In short, I think it comes back to the two things I mentioned in the title: patience and perseverence. A little patience and a little perseverence, and the future will be all I’ve dreamt of That is what I keep telling myself!

‘Hold on my heart, hold onto that feeling’ (Phil Collins)Comments, anyone?

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