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Perhaps Love..

Archana — Fri, 20 Jul 2007 11:13:50 +0000

To me, love is a lot of comfort. It is comforting for me to know that, at the end of the day, I have a shoulder to rest on. Someone to spill everything out to. Someone I can count on to make me smile, even if I’m exhausted. Someone to simply make me feel better when I’m down, or feeling crummy for no reason at all. Someone who will understand that I need comforting, and solace, and someone who will unselfishly provide that, without asking or needing, or expecting anything in return.

Now, this reminds me that there is a most beautiful love song, by Placido Domingo, and John Denver called ‘Perhaps Love’.

Anyone who has not heard this, has surely missed out! Look it up, and listen to it, or ask Jagadish or me for it We will be happy to share it with you. Here’s the lyrics from this most touching, soothing, revealing, simply awesome song:

Perhaps love is like a resting place, a shelter from the storm
It exists to give you comfort, it is there to keep you warm
And in those times of trouble when you are most alone
The memory of love will bring you home

Perhaps love is like a window, perhaps an open door
It invites you to come closer, it wants to show you more
And even if you lose yourself and don’t know what to do
The memory of love will see you through

Love to some is like a cloud, to some as strong as steel
For some a way of living, for some a way to feel
And some say love is holding on and some say letting go
And some say love is everything, and some say they don’t know

Perhaps love is like the ocean, full of conflict, full of pain
Like a fire when it’s cold outside, thunder when it rains
If I should live forever, and all my dreams come true
My memories of love will be of you

Some say love is holding on and some say letting go
Some say love is everything and some say they don’t know

Perhaps love is like the mountains, full of conflict, full of change
Like a fire when it’s cold outside, thunder when it rains
If I should live forever, and all my dreams come true
My memories of love will be of you

I cannot agree more.

Perhaps l o v e does this to you

Three years and still going strong..

Archana — Wed, 10 May 2006 04:38:00 +0000

Wow. I can scarely believe it has been three years. Why is it, I wonder, that at times, the days seem to zoom by, and at other times, time seems to stand still and you impatiently wait for the days to go by?

Undoubtedly, the last few months have been the roughest part of our relationship. It is so easy to fall in love, and so very tough to beat the odds and keep it going. There are so many issues we had to and still need to overcome. I’m truly thankful to God he shoved us on the same path together, and from there on, albeit rather cautiously in the beginning, we marked out a path for ourselves.

The hardest part about an anniversary is coming up with an appropriate gift, I think. There are so many occasions in a year: Valentine’s Day in February, anniversary in May, our birthdays in September, the day we met in December. No dearth of days to celebrate for sure! The downside is coming up with novel ideas for each special event to make it memorable. So this time, I’ve attempted to write a poem of sorts. I think the last time I did this was to apologize (profusely) to Jagadish for some reason I cant quite recall now. It’s amatuerish, and tries too hard to rhyme in some places, but it’s straight from the heart.

And so dearest Jagadish, this is for you.

Only you can make me feel

Strong and cool

Dizzy and weak

Ooh, my heart and soul crazily reel.

Only you can lift me this high

Make me soar, make me fly

Yet light-headed and shy

Sighhhhh.

Only you are my fated half

Fortune, providence

Destiny and luck,

I love how you make me laugh!

Only you can love me like this

Tender and caring

Gentle and giving

You have shown me eternal bliss.

Only you make me complete

Whole and full

Total and absolute

Each and every time we meet.

Only you make love so true

Real, genuine

Sincere and trusting

So every day feels anew.

Only you, Only me

Together, inseparable

Indissoluble, undividable

You and me must be meant-to-be!

Third Anniversary..

Jagadish — Sat, 06 May 2006 14:32:00 +0000

Exactly three years back, in the year 2003, in this month of May, I ran into Archana on DALnet. There were no sparks, bells or whistles like in the movies. It was just another night for me and I had come back to the channel after a long wait of 12 months. There were old friends, renewed friendships and finally a new girl by name Archana. We talked about her admission into PhD and I pretended to read her hand(virtually ofcourse) and predicted success. What happened in the next few days was not magic nor it was getting to know each other the old fashioned way. We were both subjected to a pleothora of feelings. There was a feeling of closeness and an odd feeling that we’ve known each other all our lives. We ran through our brief twenty year biographies to ensure that we were not lost friends from childhood. There were no specific links as such. We never lived at the same place at the same time so there was no way we could’ve known each other.

The feeling of closeness helped us in many ways. We were able to share things which we would’ve never been able to share with anyone else. Its never easy to confess to friends or family, it is easy for them get judgemental or prejudiced. Sentences like, “I told you so” and “you didnt listen to me” would be all too common. We were both strangers in our own miserable lives. It helped us to share our sorrows and set things right which had gone wrong. I’ve never believed in Fate or destiny. But the very reason that we’ve met each other in a crucial juncture in our life makes me want to change my mind. For me Archana has changed a lot of things. It was the single most influential event in my life which had changed the course of my life on its head. And it does make me want to believe in fate because I dont know what would’ve happened if I hadnt run into Archana at that point of time. Fate probably provided us an opportunity to get together. And what happened next was completely our doing.

What I had experienced over those first couple of weeks was comfort, happiness and most importantly trust. There were these moments when we typed each other the favourite parts from the books we read. And then discussed dialogues from movies. We had the most fun time together after a long long time. It has slowly dawned upon me that it does not matter whether you meet someone online or real. While it is possible to create an impression of something you are not online, it has never occurred to me that Archana could be dishonest. She was simple and honest. And it had never occurred to me that she could be lying about anything and she had no reason to. People who know Archana will probably agree with me on this. Her smile and simplicity are in many ways addictive. Once you talk to her, you would probably come back tomorrow to find her. And we always looked forward to talking to each other everyday.

Even though we were both sure of the kind of feelings we had for each other, we were circumspect because of the kind of past we have had. We wanted to be sure that we were not making another mistake. But the way things were going on, in the first couple of weeks, you could do nothing but throw caution to the wind. There were these co-incidences, not trivial ones like loving the same author or listening to same kind of music but it was a little deeper than that. There were these odd co-incidences like, eating raw onions, sugar with yogurt, eating meegada(the thick layer which forms on home made curd) with curry and rice and finally we shared the same initial “T”(Archana still teases me that it took me a T to realise all this). It prompted me to write a mail titled “Soulmates?!?!?!”. And I saw this as a sign, something that wasn’t just a chance occurance. I believed that this meeting was for a reason and the proposal has been already immortalised in the previous posts(Refer: My Meandering Muse). It has been an amazing transformation of our fortunes ever since. We not only found happiness in each other but a sense of meaning to our lives. So much so that we cant imagine spending our lives with anyone else.

And like I always say the first few years have been quite easy to handle. We were in madly love and time seemed to zip past us. Not that the love has reduced in anyway but we have had to make many more compromises and sacrifices in the past 6 months or so compared to the first 2years put together. We have never wanted to make this blog a relationship advice center for long distance relationships. What worked for us might not work for everyone and we’re hardly perfect to give everyone advice. Sometimes this has been a major struggle because in trying to keep this going, we’re hurting some people on the way. It would be hard for them to understand the importance of this relationship which is born on a platform where trust is feeble or non-existent. As much as we wish these things would go smoothly, its not as easy as it would all seem to be in the beginning of it all. But in the end all the trouble would only seem necessary to make a dream as good as this come true. .

And finally Archana, on this anniversary of our third year, I would like to thank you for all the love. May three become three hundred and may our love shine brighter than now. I am sure you have had to make a lot of sacrifices and things dont seem too good right now but I am sure in the end of it all, it would be worthwhile . I love you more than anything else. I hope the sun never sets on us and we keep going on and on. . Here’s for another great anniversary.